I can't even tell you how long its been since the last time I actually sat down to write. It is something I must do to remember my thoughts and my feelings. It's a great way to highlight my changes--not just me but in all the people around me.
As I look back on the past three months--I see great change. I see an anniversary go by--February 9--the moment I found out my life would forever change. My feelings about that anniversary or so different than they were in the moment. Then I felt worried and unsure. Today I feel excited about what the future holds. I feel lucky that God has given my family the honor to have Chambers be a part of our lives. I am excited to share my thoughts with others that get to embark on this journey. I almost feel giddy when someone tells me a new baby was born.
I know that the fears and thoughts of the new parents are what we felt. I also know that in a few months time they will be joyous of the luck they have been given.
I also look back on the changes in my children. I see Gram becoming compassionate and loving. Understanding that his baby sister will have challenges, but knowing that he will do anything to help her succeed. He has become an amazing child. I love to just sit and talk with him. He has become a protector and has grown in so many ways. I am one proud mama!
Eliza has become my sort of "free" therapy to Chambers. Everything I learn at The Bell Center she in turn teaches Chambers and helps her reach her goals. She has a lot of growing to do--but as they grow together the bond is going to be amazing!
There are so many events to list that have entered our lives since I last posted. I don't know where to begin. I need to be better of keeping my blog up to date--but life just happens. I love to be able to look back and see where my thoughts were in the past. Its amazing to see how much I have grown. I have learned one good thing over this past two years. I have learned that a smile goes a long way. I tried not to take it off. Its hard when you get to see a smile greeting you every morning. Chambers has passed on her smile to me. If everyone we come in contact can remember to pass a smile onto a friend, neighbor, or someone you don't know it would create a thousand positive reactions.
Try to smile when you least want to do it. Encounter negativity and stop it with a smile--it works and your day will be so much better for it!